18 June 2009
For a while, working with myself was a touchy issue. I recognized that to reach the state I desired I would have to clear away the obstructing mental and emotional baggage. However determined, I was reluctant to face my fears. Gradually my intent took over. After the first few confrontations with them I realized that their power was not nearly as strong as I’d imagined.
I was working specifically on feelings then, somewhat aware of individual feelings connected to thought words… or spoken words. One day I received a gift from my soul…. perhaps an ability perfected in a different life time.
It was this: As I thought or spoke, I was aware of myself observing my thought\spoken process. It was as if I had twinned myself to an extent. This observer part of me seemed to be in a neutral observing state. This seemed to clarify the feelings associated with the words I was using. From this neutral position it became obvious if the words I was choosing indicated evasion, guilt, or untruth, and I could change the words as needed to be a more honest being. And of course it was useful to examine why those particular words set off those particular feelings. This worked even when in conversation with others.
For several months this ability remained quite pronounced. Today it is more subtle… or incorporated… but still available.